Vacation

All I have been thinking about it going away. There is one specific place that I honestly want to go to, but I am not ready to go there yet. Too many emotions to deal with in taking that trip and I need to get away from that. It hasn't really been emotional for me lately, just tense. I realize how much I try to pretend everything is fine, when in fact things are far from being fine. Sometimes, I feel as if I am going to drop dead in this apartment and spend the rest of my life alone. I don't feel I have accomplished anything. I feel lonely and frustrated by so many things. It seems when I try to talk to people, they don't really listen to what I am saying....Ha and some have turned thier backs.

But I know we create our futures and that is not a future I want to create. It's just been a tough day.

Michael Jackson

The big news today of course got so much media cover and while I am not one to watch tv, I have to admit that I stood to see the verdict. I have had mixed feeling about the whole thing. Who really knows what went on!!!!! A man such as him can be so easily misunderstood and viewed in a manner that he did not mean to convey. Such as those comments that it was ok to sleep with little boys in your bed. Having made that comment and then having charges of abuse bought up, these are serious issues that need to be look at addressed carefully. Either way, I think the man needs help. But I also think that this case as it was thrown in the public made him appear guilty before he was given a trail. And that is something that this country needs to realize that we need to listen to all the facts and watch the process as it unfolds. We are too quick to come to conclusions and this can be quite dangerous for those involved. We need to be careful, we need to carefully listen/read the facts and after we have considered everything, come to a conclusion. We need to remember that trails are given to people to present thier cases. We dissect people much too quickly.

This is how it looked on the way to the party.

Gypsys Corner

I think that it was time for me to let some of my thoughts out. They kind of get composed in my head like a book, so I searched for a way to express them and found this. Cool! But I will absolutely have to redesign it when I get a chance. So many changes in our earth and as I go to work I look at the sky, I see that something drastic is going to happen again. Something like the tsuami. Don't want to think that way, but it is a very strong feeling in me. Last month as we were driving to my friends granddaughter's birthday party the sky reminded me of the way it looked in Puerto Rico when I looked out at the ocean and saw a storm rolling in. In the distance we could see it raining, but not where we were. I took a picture of it.